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Friday, April 10, 2009, 11:42:00 PM
Cry of the UnlovedCannot hardly bare
the feeling inside
hoping someone's here
to embrace me tight
cannot kept any longer
the emptiness fills my soul
for it doesn't makes me alright
It's been a long time
searching, waiting
hoping, wishing;
for a love to have
I've been praying
to the Almighty above
hoping he'll listen
to the cry of the unloved
begging for love
A love, anyone could have
a love from anybody; somebody;
parents, friends, people around;
or even a nobody's somebody
just to fill me up with love
To complete the incomplete
to right the wrong;
to strengthen the weaknesses; and
to perfect the imperfection
of the unfruitful being
hoping someone's hear
the heart's cries
Unloved I sit at my desk, Tears streaming down my face, Drenching the front of my T-shirt, Reflecting everything that I held in For so long. On the desk is a phone, At the moment motionless. My eyes bored into it, Willing it to ring, Hoping to see your name Blinking back at me. Oh, how I wished it would ring! Everything in my mind Seemed to hang on that phone call. Even though I knew you couldn't care less Even though you probably hated me, Thought I was clingy, Stubborn, Pissy, Everything you never wanted, I couldn't keep the hope from surfacing.
Why do I do this to myself? Why do I bring more misery onto myself By wishing you could make me happier? Why do I want you so badly When you probably want to see me gone? Why do I cling to you even more When you put so much effort into pushing me away? Why do I love you so much When you can't stand even hearing my voice? Can you even hear me Or are you choosing to ignore me?
I have no idea why, After all the things you did, And all the pain you put me through, I keep running back to you As if nothing ever happened. Everything pushes itself away when I'm with you, But once you're gone, I remember everything you've said and done That has hurt me so. I try to tell myself, This is it. No more second chances. But who am I kidding? You know how much I love you, And you know all the right things to say To bring me back.
The truth of the matter is, No matter how much I like to Delude myself into thinking that You love me And you would always Be there to pick me up and dust me off When I fall to the ground, You've never been there to help me up; It was more like you delayed time Until I crashed, Which I fear might be happening right now.
It's not that I was unloved at one faraway point; I have never really been loved. It breaks me in two to know That you don't feel even a small portion Of what I feel for you. After putting my heart, my soul, Everything that was me, into you, I continue to remain unloved by you.
So I'm still sitting here Waiting for the phone to ring Tears still pouring out in endless torrents My heart breaking even more For every minute I spend thinking of you
I would give anything to know you still cared. But I know that no matter what I say, And no matter what I do, You will never love me Like I love you.
-Annah Aaron
EEKKS. from someone's blogpost.
post here. as thats what i feeling now. WTHHH. i hate this feeling