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{♥} see RI band concert
{♥} see SSO concert
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Saturday, April 03, 2010, 11:31:00 PM
come on people read my blog ._.
;) im having a great life currently :Deverything has been going well, in terms of studies, cca, etc. though there are still a presence of obtacles, i will overcome it :)
learned a lot from band, maybe that's the intention of having a CCA in the first place. that's why MOE has a rule that everyone must have a CCA and that's why DHS want us to have a CHAMPS CCA. a CCA to teach us how to grow up.
from band, i learn how to be strong mentally. when people fail, it is due to fear. i failed a lot of times in band, though people doesnt notice. what i need is just support. when i gain support, i become strong. that's why i manage to show the min i have in the end.
from band, i learn what is a team. in the past, im too much an individual. can say im selfish. but now im not. i dare to declare im not. i suddenly have the urge to help everyone. though i might not be up to the standard yet. i just feel like helping, making the band stronger and more PRO.
from band, i learn that hard work always pays. in the past, i thought what i work for is nothing. i sometimes feel like giving up totally, cos what i get in the end is so meaningless. but no, i get what i have now, perhaps people feel that i gain more than what i deserved. i shall prove, im worth what i deserve now.
3 years in DHS really changed myself, in way of thinking, actions, words. but everyone knows, one thing that DHS has yet changed me. my BLURness. i'm still as blur as before. people remembers me as blur. however, im confident to say that when crucial times come, i am 100 percent clear in my mind.
looking back, at my year 1 eportfolio, i remembered in my goals. i foolishly wrote this "be a soloist". i wanted to be like terence yong. well, he was a soloist when i was year 1. though i couldnt remember how well he played or what exactly is the tune of his solo, i just wished to be a soloist. i laughed at myself for that goal. someone who once read my eportfolio in year 1 told me this "grats you achieved your goal :)" haha. thanks. his words are similar to this. i dont know how i reach so far. but im glad i reach so far.
what i wish to convey is. just try your best and work hard. there will be times where you wish to give up, reasons being you are not being recognised, fear, etc. but when you achieved what you got. you will forget everything, the process of being so tired, scared of what you are.
i agree that this sounds so unlike me, the way i talk. i always talk in a jokingly way. but i do reflect what i do. im an interpersonal person :)
why do people feel stressed? why do I feel stressed? cos we are being faced with obstacles. we are afraid that we cannot overcome those obstacles and start to worry and doing nothing.
something just contradicts our actions. let me ask you guys a simple question: do you guys do comprehension? i can bet, with my life. that everyone did at least 1 compre about obtacles in our lives. especially chinese comprehensions, they always want us to learn a lesson from their passages. there will always be a question which ask us "what do you learn from this passage?" we will always give model answer to score the marks we want.
do we ever follow what we write on that paper? NO. and why didnt we follow to what we wrote? we dont believe ourselves. we do not believe that obstacles are there for a reason, we believe that obstacles are there to block us from success, which actually it bring us nearer to our success. we write "天下无难事，是怕有心人" in our answers. but do we believe in it? i do believe in it. but i dont when im faced with obstacles.
people always dont think straight when they are faced with obtacles. what they do is this: 1) blame on people or self about the obtacles faced 2) doing nothing except thinking how hard and impossible to solve it. and nothing is done. perhaps something is done, but the root of problem isnt solved.
i might be repeating what the comprehension always says "face the obtacles with positive attitude". but it is true. face it as it will bring you stronger, more mature and imba :) obstacles make us work harder, giving more than what we normally gives, stretching our potential. at the end of the day, we gain more insights and become stronger.
so why are we scared of obstacles when they actually benefit us?
:D